i slept til 11, which i didn't really wanna do, but i was up late last nite. i gotta quit that. went 'clubbin' again last nite.. actually went inside of a place this time. i hated it. reminded me of why i don't do clubs; the dudes there were asses, evrybody was smokin, DJ was wack, & it made me feel super duper lonely for some reason. so i shan't be doin that again anytime soon.
i showered soon as i got up this mornin, threw on some sweats & my senior t-shirt from high school. yo, i been walkin round lookin like i just woke up all day. if i felt the way i looked today, i'd have the lowest self-esteem in the world. but i ain't care. lookin like a gila monster ain't no thang to me here cause really.. who am i tryna impress in this joint?
zacklee.
finally sat down & made some phone calls concernin this step show. i ain't realize how time consumin plannin wld be, particularly cause im the only one workin on it. & muhfkas don't wanna get back to me, man. i sent out a big mass email a week & a half ago--Alphas, AKAs, Omegas, Sigmas, Iotas, Zetas, Kappas, Sigmas, & Sigma Gamma Rhos. at least 3 of those emails came back to me. the others just didn't respond, cept the Alphas. the president said he was interested & wld present to idea to his brothers.
i've sent him another email since then. no response.
so i did some more stalkin today & found phone numbers for the contacts i got from the websites of their respective schools. again, most of those numbers were dead ends, so i hadda resort to callin ppl i know who may know somebody who may know somebody in a blk sorority or fraternity.
i called jermaine, who gave me will's number, who gave me antoine's number, who gave me some cat named nathaniel's number. constant run around.
my efforts were at least a lil fruitful, tho--talked to the president of UK's Kappas *vomit* & he said they can prolly make it... i'll hear from Morehead's Iotas by wednesday, & i left messages with NKU's sigmas & Western's omegas.
i hope this shit is a success. all this time ive wasted stalkin & emailin & contactin, i clda been done wrote 5 papers.
anyway
i got a lotta other stuff done today too, academic wise. feels like there's just so much waiting to be done still, & it just ain't enuff time in the day. the weeks are flyin by, tho.. i guess that's a good thing. the quicker they go, the sooner i get outta this joint.
i've haad dre's album on repeat, man. this shit makes me wanna write but im skurred to try just yet. i really want to tho... i got projects lined up--a play to be done by july, a poem for ishan due like a month ago.
