the klan's gonna march in louisville on derby day. fuckin a.
today was the first day of class. takin 'literature of the american south.' i can take it credit/no credit, but im gonna take it for a grade. see if i can prove myself a bit.
still dont have any idea what ima do when i graduate.
i gotta read for the deans tomorrow. im wearin my pimp hat for confidence.
my computer crashed. hard drive's gone. they managed to save my text and music files tho so im straight. i got my brother's laptop for the time bein.
i still dont feel good, but im feelin better.
talked to my daddy on the horn last nite. this was the product:
TracimusLynnicus: donnie
d j A y 7 8: trace.
TracimusLynnicus: myfather is an idiot.
d j A y 7 8: ?
d j A y 7 8: ha...oookay
TracimusLynnicus: he makes me not want to talk to him.
TracimusLynnicus: he's such a fucking republican.
TracimusLynnicus: ugh i feel like vomitting
d j A y 7 8: you just get off the phone w/ him?
d j A y 7 8: what did he say
TracimusLynnicus: yeah, man
TracimusLynnicus: we were talkin bout me bein an english major
TracimusLynnicus: and somehow he starts talkin bout how most blk ppl do bad in english because they speak 'broken english.'
TracimusLynnicus: before i continue
d j A y 7 8: whoa
TracimusLynnicus: let me point out that my father does NOT speak perfect english
TracimusLynnicus: and he's black.
TracimusLynnicus: what's that u say? sounds like self hate?
TracimusLynnicus: yes. i think so too.
TracimusLynnicus: so i, of course, beg to differ with him.
TracimusLynnicus: i say that u gotta take into account the shitty ass schools blk ppl are forced in to
TracimusLynnicus: bad, outta date books
TracimusLynnicus: bad teachers
TracimusLynnicus: lack of opportunity & whatchacallit
TracimusLynnicus: ummm
TracimusLynnicus: access!
TracimusLynnicus: to better stuff
d j A y 7 8: shoot...bad environment
TracimusLynnicus: and he goes on and on about how blk ppl just dont wanna learn, basically
TracimusLynnicus: yeah!
TracimusLynnicus: and how if u sit down to read a book, it's your job to grasp and comprehend
TracimusLynnicus: and the other stuff has little to do with it.
TracimusLynnicus: hello, nigga, if i sit down here with a quantum physics book
TracimusLynnicus: and read it from cover to cover
TracimusLynnicus: and STILL dont get it
TracimusLynnicus: it's not my fault
TracimusLynnicus: that's what teachers are for
TracimusLynnicus: and if u have a teacher that doesn't give a shit about what u learn
TracimusLynnicus: u're not gonna learn
TracimusLynnicus: and if u're readin from a flawed book
TracimusLynnicus: readin from it is pointless in the first place
d j A y 7 8: either way you end up behind the white kids
TracimusLynnicus: exactly.
TracimusLynnicus: oh and THEN
TracimusLynnicus: i sy
TracimusLynnicus: *say
TracimusLynnicus: 'this is the same sort of argument that ppl use to blame poor ppl for bein poor'
TracimusLynnicus: then he laughs, donnie, and says real smug
TracimusLynnicus: 'so why are poor ppl poor then?'
TracimusLynnicus: sone of a bitch
TracimusLynnicus: i cut the convo short right then.
TracimusLynnicus: *son
TracimusLynnicus: u know
TracimusLynnicus: conversations like this make me glad i didnt grow up with him
TracimusLynnicus: i cant imagine bein fed such bullshit.
TracimusLynnicus: -done-
d j A y 7 8: whoa.
d j A y 7 8: The only thing you can do...
d j A y 7 8: is prove him wrong
d j A y 7 8: I mean..
d j A y 7 8: you already have in a sense
d j A y 7 8: You're a living example of that
TracimusLynnicus: yeah
TracimusLynnicus: and then he was like
TracimusLynnicus: 'these kids learn english in school, but then when they get outta class and come home, they speak the same old slang'
TracimusLynnicus: im like um.... so do u
TracimusLynnicus: *i
TracimusLynnicus: *so do i
TracimusLynnicus: donnie, he degrades me
d j A y 7 8: "these kids"
TracimusLynnicus: evrytime he talks about 'these kids'
TracimusLynnicus: he doesnt seem to know that IM wunna these kids
TracimusLynnicus: he talks bad about the end of town i grew up & lived in
TracimusLynnicus: like he didn't grow up & live there too
d j A y 7 8: What do you think started this?
TracimusLynnicus: i dont know, man
TracimusLynnicus: i dont know enuff about him to know.
TracimusLynnicus: and this sorta bullshit makes me not wanna know anything about him
TracimusLynnicus: sometimes.
d j A y 7 8: He calls you to talk though
d j A y 7 8: right?
TracimusLynnicus: yeah.
TracimusLynnicus: and lord does he talk.
d j A y 7 8: Just to "catch up" with you?
d j A y 7 8: does he? ha ha
TracimusLynnicus: presumably.
TracimusLynnicus: he always does most of the talkin tho
TracimusLynnicus: its hard to get a word in edgewise.
d j A y 7 8: THAT'S HOW I FEEL W/ YOU! Must run in the family!
d j A y 7 8: (jokes)
TracimusLynnicus: i will smack u.
TracimusLynnicus: in the eye.
d j A y 7 8: w/ a hot dog?
TracimusLynnicus: with a foreign object.
and now, im goin to bed. im tryna look cute tomorrow, which means i gotta catch up on my beauty sleep. badly.
