i been meanin to update but
i dont even have an excuse. my bad.
so i graduated. the ceremony was nice, i guess. it was hot. there was no shade (it didnt rain so the ceremony was outside) because last year's ice storm knocked all the trees out. the graduates were in black. this was the one time i was glad there weren't that many blk students in my graduatin class. blk folk draw body heat. i wlda died.
i have pictures to show yall but i gotta upload them first and that'll take forevr with this slow connection. i got some pretty nice pictures of the setup the day before; i got a new digital camera for graduation the day before from pops, so i was walkin around with it and ended up behind old morrison where graduation was to be held. there were two security officers watchin over evrything, protectin it from vandals. i talked to them a lil bit and asked if it was okay if i got on stage and took pictures of all the empty chairs & they said yeah. then the young one--the white one--mentioned nonchalantly that he'd seen a little miniature noose hung over a rafter of one of the speaker stands sitting on either side of the stage. the way he was smilin i thought he was jokin & didnt think anything of it. he walked up to the stage with me and while i was on stage he walked away from the left speaker stand with a little noose made out of a blk piece of rope.
the next day i noticed that i was sitting right next to that speaker. right next to it. of course i started conspiracy theorizing and decided that i was meant to see that. it was supposed to be the final insult on my day of achievement.
bitches.
anyway, the ceremony went quickly. the speakers sucked. i got very, very pissed while the skinny blonde girl was reading the speech i was supposed to give. that was some real underhanded shit and im gonna write to the deans about it very soon. the commencement speaker was some old wrinkled up ass white man who graduated from transy in NINETEEN FORTY. 1940!!! and he was some sorta religious, longevity expert, so basically it was an old man talkin about other old men. snooze-o-rama.
after the ceremony the grads met their friends and family in haupt plaza for a little reception. my mama cried her eyes out. she says it's cause she was happy, but when my mama cries she always looks like she's at a funeral. there was no smile, no happiness anywhere in her eyes. she was sad. i held her there for about 5 minutes and for about 5 minutes she cried. i teared up a little too.
i shld run down the guest list, i guess--my mama was there and david was with her; so was my niece, tiara, my granny, my big brother and his roommate/my childhood friend matthew; aunt pauline & chuck; uncle ronald & nadiene; joe reese and his fiance drove all the way down from detroit; my pops was there; and uncle ernest (aka professorlips) and aunt denise. none of my friends were there aside from the ones who graduated with me. dallas was no where to be found. after all that mouth runnin teddy didn't show. when i asked him where he was he completely lied to me. he's so full of it yo.
that evening my mama and aunt and lita threw a get together for me at my aunt & lita's restaurant. sooooooooo much food. none of my friends were there except candis (i see a trend here. do u?). i got lotsa cards and a big bouquet of sunflowers. it was nice. i got a total of $600, which i thought was a lot til candis told me she got $1200. still, im greatful.
so that was graduation. i'll have pictures soon, i hope.
i dont have a job. so far i sit in my room all day. i watch the kids when they're here (they're not here this week cause tiara's in innanapolis with her daddy for 2 weeks, so andrea wont be here either. YES!). me and my mama switched bedrooms to keep my granny outta my hair (im upstairs now). it's workin pretty well; the house has only had one major altercation as of yet.. long story, ill tell u later.
i havent seen much of my friends since ive been home. dallas is slowly abandonin me, stayin stuck up under this new boyfriend of hers. stood me up twice already. i at least had one nite out w/ the guys, and that was fun; i met sean and teddy and errk and ben and tony and deshawn and tytus and nina at the waterfront and we played taboo til like 1 in the mornin--this was the same day that me and grams and moms had that run in--so it was good to get outta the house.
im in dire need of some new friends, man. things are craaaaaaaazy awkward w/ me & teddy still. he's been here since ive been home from school and ive only seen him twice, only talked to him on the phone twice. he's movin back home (he says) to work with the hip hop scene in louisville. he'd rather work here w/ somethin that barely exists than stay in fl and work with glen lewis and floetry and dwele and raphael saadiq.
..he be lyin, yo.
at any rate, thing'sll prolly be thisaway for awhile. and im reluctant to spend much time w/ sean cause he kinda been lookin at me crossways too now, specially since he just broke up with his girl.
i need some GIRLfriends, man. mens is too much drama.
cant wait til i move.
cant wait til i know when that'll be.
so. that's my recap as far as i got. im gettin ready to run away soon & i cant wait.
candis brought me my graduation gift last weekend. it's a big ol picture collage of me, her & brittany over the yrs.
u know time's passin when u can make collages to document it.
