ya mama got jell-o feet w/ fruit in the toes.

been quite a week

and its only thursday.
ive got lots i cld prolly go on & on & on about but im too tired to do so.

so.

I - the innaview.

it went alright.
i was interviewed by a lady named betsy and two other young women named jenny and amy. they were all nice.

it's actually not an editing job at all--basically i'd be responsible for reading, summarizing and entering at least 85 articles into a database a day for use in search engines like the ones u find @ libraries.

pays $10.50 an hr.
i really hope i get it.

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II - my mama.

she went to the dr about a week ago to see a/b her heart. she said it was fluttering and pounding and acting weird, so they fitted her with some kind of monitor to wear for a day. she went yesterday for a reading and they told her that she's having premature vascular contractions or something, and they can be caused by anything from stress to too much caffine. im worried though because she's not as healthy as she cld or shld be, especially entering menopause, and she's been doing this low-carb dieting bullshit. i know it can mess w/ ur kidneys but who knows what it's doin to ur heart, what with all the meat & protien u have to take in.

so im scared.
pray for her, plz.

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III - dallas.

dallas called me yesterday. she has cervical cancer.

she's known for 3 months & didnt want to tell me. i was mad at first, prolly mostly cause i was so upset a/b the news, but i understand why she kept it quiet.

she had surgery last friday. they removed part of her cervix. they won't know if they got it all til next thursday.

im scared.
pray for her too.

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IV - my writing.

i get more and more discouraged and disgusted everyday.

after hearing about dallas, though, and listenin to this song on repeat, i managed to get this out a little while ago. i dunno how good it is but for some reason i want the whole world to read it. i guess... i dunno, she's led such a hard life in anonymity. ppl need to know a/b this woman's strength.

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V. - my baby.

i miss u very very much.




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