gotta get used to these keys. might hafta cut my nails to accomodate. it's time for a trimmin anyway though.
as odd as this sounds, i was hesitant to give this computer so much attention. its like.. proof that im finna leave, in a way. i bought this computer for my move. now its like, wow.. stuff is fallin into place. out w/ the old computer, in w/ the new. out with the old life, in w/ the new.
i was skurred.
we koo now tho. me & Lucille's finna be like peas and carrots. like ceephus and reesie. like ham and burger.
i bought her downstairs out of my room to work on it for the first time since ive had it (addin software, music, etc). man u shlda seen me tryna get ready for the transport. it was like a mother preparing to take her newborn out the house for the first time since comin home from the hospital. my mama got me a really nice bag for it, right, so im like 'okay.. she'll need some music, ill put these in this compartment.. oh and i shld take the power cord, just in case she gets hungry..'
silly.
its dope tho. so far i got all my music on here; both my portable usb ports all installed and ready to go (i cldn't use them w/ my old computer for some reason); got my lil portable mp3 player up and workin again, too (i cldn't use that w/ the old computer, either; it really is such a hater). i think ive got just about all the stuff i need from my old computer on to this one--i still gotta download soulseek and possibly kazaa, but i gotta make sure there's nothin else i need to salvage before i do a total restore on the old machine (i gotta make sure there's no um.. incriminating or otherwise inappropriate stuff that i wldnt want my mother/brother/whoever ends up w/ the computer to see). then, i'll install the software for my new printer, my new monitor, my whatchacallit and my other whatcha call it and then i can set it up like a desktop!
i'll provide pictures in due time. i want you to be fully prepared to hate on me and Lucille the way we be deserved to be hated on. we're so much flyer than u and yours, i promise.
in other news i got 2 more weeks of work (ive decided that july 13th shall be my last day). 2 weeks after that, im moving. that is incredibly terrifying. incredibly. but i'm still excited. my granny's already worrying (see: worrying me) about it, askin me all sad and meek and 'how-cld-u-do-this-to-me'-like about my plans. well maybe that's not fair to say, but if she's not intending this to be a guilt trip, its turning into one anyway. she and my mother have been at it today, but beyond that she's just been in a gloomy mood. this morning/early afternoon, they were both in the kitchen and i came in asking questions about utility prices for when i got my own place. later on, everytime my granny would pass me sitting here at the dining room table, she'd stop and make her voice all sweet-granny like and put her arm around me and stare at me with huge sad granny eyes and ask me questions-
'are u gonna be livin in philadelphia?'
'aw, really?'
'what made you wanna go there?'
'how come you to go so far away?'
'you don't like louisville?'
'i hate that chu goin so far away.'
here i told her that she should be happy that i'm going to be happy (and directly after said i prayer that i really will be happy). she said oh of course, 'im always happy long as my children is happy'
i tried to speak with as much conviction as i cld abt it in hopes of making her worry a little less, but i think its a lost cause. worrying is just what she does these days. so, ima hafta mentally prepare myself for quite a show on the morning of my departure, im sure. since she'd been a little down today, it was obvious that she needed somebody to talk to, and it felt good being downstairs with my mother and the rest of civilization, so i decided to try and tough it out. i cldnt do it though. she soon drove me back up to my room where i am now b/c of both her and my drunk ass mama.
im listenin to estero's new album again. its excellent. i like it a lot.
and i'm now typing using my wireless keyboard. maaaaaaaan... this sht is EXCELLENT. its so fly im even jealous of myself. and i aint even got it all set up yet.
: 11:51 AM, July 03, 2005