ya mama got jell-o feet w/ fruit in the toes.

i'm beginning to feel overwhelmed.

things were going good. they still are, but i just feel myself getting a little frazzled.

everything that i've been planning for is happening, about to happen, or may possibly be happening. i move in two weeks. im learnin to be alone again. they'll make a decision on this admin position soon. all great stuff.

but im starting to stress over this move, coordinating and figuring and all that; it's getting to be a lot already and i havent packed the first bag yet.

i'm starting to feel just a little lonely again, but im fending it off well (i hope); still a vast improvement from where i wlda been a week ago

and i'm scared and nervous about potentially getting this job (they said im one of their top candidates). it's a lot of responsibility, and truth be told im not confident enough in myself to not be nervous. i'm playin the whatif game right now-- what if they hate me? what if i mess up? what if what if what if? i don't know if it's failing or succeeding that i'm afraid of. but, i think i felt the same way before i started my current gig, and im kickin ass there (though you'd never know it based on their reluctance to offer me a full time spot).

my place is a mess and it keeps getting messier.
im working longer hrs and when i come home its time to bed.

the water's wavin up some & the boats startin to rock.
ima ride it out tho.

i have to.

something else ive learned:
wanting someone isn't a bad thing, but needing someone can be sometimes.


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