----------------------------- He: dude He: when r u leaving? Me: prolly around the 7th or so Me: i still got stuff to take care of He: but u got a place to stay and all that correct? Me: yep! Me: fount a place when i was up last week He: good good He: room mate? Me: nope He: YAAAAAAAAAY! Me: lol Me: why yaaay? He: dude...they suck He: unless you're really cool with em He: and even then... He: there's a chance you'll become mortal enemies Me: lol i wldnt have minded a roommate for real Me: the one i had lined up as plan B is super fantastically excellent & we wlda be straight He: minded He: wow Me: plus it'll be so lonely in that apt all alone He: good to know Me: lol what? He: NO IT WON'T!!! He: it's great! Me: why'd u 'wow' at 'minded'? He: lol He: minded Me: it wont be until im used to bein in such a big city He: come on He: valid point He: *shruggin shoulders* Me: lol come on what! Me: ? He: once agian...we is differento He: lol...nothin He: let it go Me: hmm Me: sounded a lil suspicious Me: but okay!
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**this was for u, the field day i was tellin u about. have fun. lol
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Me: u never told me how the shindig w/ floetry was Me: i asked candis for an update since she'd talked to u since Me: but she said she knew nothing about it at all He: cuz i killed em Me: lol Me: no really He: nothing to tell really... He: had to move the date back cuz only one of em could make it He: aka...the one who didn't sing Me: lol He: at least i got a chance to talk to her though Me: coincidence! again! He: and once again... He: the accent!!! He: what do u mean? Me: lol nothin Me: that's unfortunate tho He: nah...i still got paid something... He: that's only cuz this is the 2nd time it's happened though He: and that was cool of them cuz we haven't even signed a contract Me: word Me: i think u didnt go so u cld have a reason to go to philly later after ive moved in so u can visit me Me: dont lie craig! Me: dont lie! He: awwwww that's so cute He: so wrong He: yet so cute Me: lmao Me: it's okay Me: i understand Me: i'll try and be sure that my concubines are out of the building when the times arrives Me: but Me: i cant promise nothin Me: just for future reference;-)
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i honestly think that this is his plan. seriously. i mean... i really do.
next: one of the very very few times we've had a serious discussion about the state of our friendship- ----------------------------------
Me: so when'd u reschedule for? He: *shruggs* He: haven't got back to me Me: werd He: yep He: it seems like they wanna work with me...but who knows Me: welp Me: good luck w/ that He: lol... He: were did this sudden burst of support come from homie? Me: lol 'good luck with that' is a burst of support? He: nah... Me: it's because i want to ride ur coattails into superstardom Me: it's all part of my master plan Me: to become a leech He: you've never really asked too much about my work before He: grow-up...i wasn't sayin that Me: lol i know Me: but truth be told like 5% of me doesnt believe it all Me: cause it's pretty fantastic stuff He: maybe working with them...just to get canceled on is fantastic? Me: the idea of flying to philly to work with floetry in dj jazzy jeff's own studio alone is pretty fantastic Me: and the job with virgin in london was fantastic Me: and the trip to africa that just never came to be was fantastic Me: and stevie and raphael and glen lewis Me: all pretty fantastic Me: yknow? Me: iono if that has anything to do w/ my lack of askin abt it, but more than that i jsut dont be pryin like that Me: lol this prolly sounds real offensive He: africa went along with the job for virgin... Me: i pologize, i dont mean it to be Me: just brainstormin He: nah...you're good He: the stevie thing was through full sail.... He: he comes down every year to talk and set up scholarship funds...and i was suppose to be the student assigned to him when he did He: the raphael thing i got through meeting his newphew that was comin to full sail that i showed around He: wow... He: so that's y u never ask He: cuz u think it's bs? Me: nope, i aint say that He: that's deep Me: typically that information is volunteered Me: i never ask after ppl's personal biz like that Me: i figure if u want me to know, if it's important to u Me: u'll tell me Me: maybe it's a fault? i dunno, iont consider it to be He: nah... Me: but for real, lol, i dont think it's unnatural to hear so many hugely amazing things and be like Me: '...for real?' Me: i'd question it if it was ME it was happeningto Me: lol Me: and i'd expect ppl to give me the 'girl boo' face on occassion He: the reason y i don't really bring it up is cuz you don't seem to really like the work that i've played u before Me: i dont think that's why i dont ask tho. that's just me Me: well i mean Me: there's been some stuff i heard that i didnt care for He: no...that's y i don't really talk about any of that with u anymore Me: but im hard on music like that He: aka..most of it Me: but i've liked some things ive heard from u Me: and i've told u so Me: no Me: not most of it Me: but i tell u when i like ur stuff Me: i just dont wanna front or go bananas if im not bananas about it Me: i'd want that from any of my friends He: that's not what i'm asking for either... He: but i can honestly think of maybe one time when i've played u something to where u were like... He: that's pretty cool He: maybe i'm wrong... Me: there were at least 3 tracks u played for me that i liked the time me and sean and what's his name were at the studio w/ u Me: and there have been times aside from that Me: it aint like u've played me a million tracks as it is Me: but i swear it's been way more than 1 or 2 times He: i'm just saying...that's what it seems like Me: i understand Me: that's not true though He: fair enough Me: i dont want u to take me not appearing jubiliant abt something as me not being interested or thinkin it sucks Me: & i really dont think i've been completely cold abt ur work, but Me: i dunno. 's just how i am i guess He: i'm saying that you're completely cold about anything... He: i think the best way to say it is... He: how i feel about my music is how u feel about your writing He: for me...it's one of the only things i really really takie seriously... He: and i guess the fact that i deal with a lot of construtive critizism with it in a day to day setting... He: when i hear more of it from the few people that i do play it for... He: it just hits home harder for me He: which is cool... He: i don't know...it's just different hearing it from u or sean or tonda compared to some local cat who...chances are is never gonna make it He: so i mostly keep it to myself Me: keeping with this example Me: that music to u is like writing to me Me: i never think anything of it that u never ask about my writing Me: nobody ever asks me about my writing Me: so i guess it's all about what we're used to Me: & i hope that u wont take it personally from here on out Me: just like u said when we started this im conversation Me: we're different ppl Me: i guess that's what it comes to He: it's not like i'm mad or anything... He: and as far as your writing...you know i'm a big fan He: i still have your poem hangin up at my place He: but...point taken Me: my bad.. had to run downstairs Me: & i still have the cd u and sean made for me and i listen to it at least once a week Me: truthfully Me: so we seem to be in the same space as far as this is concerned Me: we just seem to be different in what we want and expect from friends when it comes to our crafts Me: and how we interpret things when it comes to them He: agreed
i'd feel bad abt not believing him had his own best friend not expressed the same sentiments. but at least i've planted a lil hint of how i feel abt the stuff he be sayin. i feel better now. & im done w/ it. he obviously aint gon quit it, so he's just gon hafta be like that cousin that everybody knows is a klepto so u invite them over anyway u just watch them like a hawk while they're in ur home.
